I’ve been feeling a down the last few days. We have been having rainy, cool weather that is not good for the fibromyalgia, it sometimes causes a flare in symptoms, and it doesn’t seem to be good for my mood either. Tomorrow looks to be cloudy and cool as well so I am in for another day of gloom, or at least I thought until I woke up this morning and looked outside. There I saw why we need the rain and it gave me some hope that there will be a brighter future.
The field behind where I live has transformed in the last few days changing from bare trees to a lush, green, beautiful sight. And, it will keep on transforming until I can’t see the pond behind the trees. My heart lifted from the depression I was feeling for those moments I looked over the field. It has returned, I am not sure why, but I know that it will leave and hope will return.
In Liz’s post Just at Thought, over at Successful Blog she quotes the Reverend Jim Wallis who says that , Hope is not an idea or a personality, Hope is a choice. After thinking about that quote, that I have a choice rather to be hopeful or not, I started feeling better. That hope I felt when I first looked out over the field started to return. Today is better than yesterday and tomorrow can be better than today. I feel more hope about what I can achieve today because I am now in a better state of mind. The bareness in my soul is now turning greener.
I needed the combination of those two items in order to lift my spirit. I needed the reminder that even though I have times of depression there are also times of happiness just as there are times of rain and times of sunshine. I also needed to think that for today hope is a choice . I can choose hope even though I still feel a bit down because I know in a future time, maybe an hour from now, maybe a few days from now, that I will feel the sunshine and my spirit will feel lighter and more in tune with the person I truly feel I am in my heart.
I leave you with a quote with this quote
Hope is like the sun, which as we journey toward it, casts the shadow of our burdens behind us.
- Samuel Smiles
Does you hope wax and wane like I feel or is it something you always have hold of? How do you envision hope?
6 Responses for "Without The Rain There Woud Be No Hope"
Not sure where you live but it’s grey, gloomy, chilly here in Maine and I’m fighting the same mood. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia back in ‘96 and I absolutely know what the weather is like when I wake up in the morning… before I even see it is over cast or pouring out.
It is only through willing myself to do what I must to shake the gloom - playing music that propels me to move around the house or taking a shower with wonderful smelly stuff that perks me up.
Thinking, remembering when I was a kid - running in the fields and pulling all of my senses into the memory is my favorite way to bring hope to the surface.
If nothing seems to work, I always remember what Scarlet O’Hara said “Tomorrow is another day…” because it’s true.
Now, I must get over to Liz’s blog - it’s been too long.
Tammy
Thanks for stopping by Tammy. I live in Massachusetts so it’s the same storm we both have been experiencing.
Lately I’ve been listening to Mika and Lily Allen to get me moving. They are young, british pop singers and their music reminds me of the 70s — my youth. Lily Allen’s lyrics are pretty explicit, just a warning. Sounds like she has been in some bad relationships!
I made myself some tea today and sat down and did the work I needed to do. Now I’m just playing a bit before the Sopranos come on. Then my day is done and it wasn’t too bad. And, tomorrow is another day
Being of an age where I have one foot in the grave and the other on a banana peel, I don’t rely on the future very much. On the other hand, I’m doing work that’s meaningful to me, whether or not anyone else ever values it.
I really enjoy challenges, and what I’m doing right now is just about the right level for me, so I’m grateful. Yep, for me it’s gratitude, not hope.
Gratitude for me is found in the very moment that I am living. It sounds like that is the same for you. I still need hope in my life though but it is something in the future. I have to be flexible though because what I envision for the future many times is different to what happens. If I box myself in I will be disappointed. If I open myself to the possibilities then who knows what great things can happen!
Intellectually I don’t necessarily believe in a bright future, but my heart is always an optimist, excited about what might be around the next corner. So instead of hope I try to foster courage, so I don’t have to worry about the potential grim stuff and can just enjoy the possibilities.
Does that make sense to you?
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